This is not where I belong

The older I get, the more I realize how dependent my mood is on the weather.

I realized pretty early on living in the Seattle area that I needed to get a break during the dark dreary months and find some sun.

I spent nearly a week in Cancun, Mexico last week soaking up sun and enjoying rare one on one time with my husband and loving every minute of it.

One of our favorite things to do to start the day is to get out and run. I don't necessarily love the running part, but being outside, being active and exploring the area is a great way to start the day.

One of the songs that came on on my iPod as I was running was Building 429 "Where I Belong"

If you haven't heard it, or just love the song and want to hear it again, here it is.  It's a great one.

This is Not Where I Belong: A Reflection of My Mood in the Dreary Pacific Northwest

Though I must confess, hearing that song under the shade of the palm trees on the white sand beaches with the warm sun streaming down on me was difficult for me to wrap my mind around.

I know that this world is not my home.  I'm merely passing through it on my way to my eternal home in heaven, but boy how we can so easily get comfortable here.  Especially under palm trees with a warm breeze blowing.

This morning, as I was running through the rain with dark clouds and no sun in sight, the same song came on.  It was much easier for me to hear that song and sing those lyrics and know that this world is not where I belong.  

I spent some time reflecting today on this song and the Hebrews verse that inspired it {Hebrews 13:14-21} and realized that being comfortable can be a stumbling block for me sometimes.  I've always been a very independent person and sometimes my greatest struggle is wanting to do things on my own.  My parents will tell you my first sentence as a toddler was "Baby do it."  This comfort that I have can rob me of the dependence that I need to have in God. 

When I was in Uganda this past summer, I saw men and women with an amazing faith in God that comes from a deep reliance on Him for their every need.  They look to God as their provider and they see him providing.  If I lack something I can usually head to the local WalMart and provide it for myself. 

I want to not be so comfortable on this earth that I forget about why I am here. I want to not be so distracted by the things this world provides me with that I am not growing in grace and spreading the word of God and the truth that He brings.  I want to know that even the most beautiful place in this whole world is not even a fraction of how beautiful heaven will be one day.

This life isn't about my comfort. This is not where I belong. How do you keep yourself in check with this?